The Talk Show dream

I'm watching The Greg Behrendt Show right now and he just talked with this couple who haven't had sex in three months. The wife's story sounds so much like mine, only for me it's been about 5 years!!! Her husband has a lot of self-esteem issues and is depressed about his own life and what he's become because of a back injury that has kept him from working, and also some apparent problems in the bedroom. Well, yeah, I completely understand. My own husband's reasons for being depressed and not liking himself may be different, but his reactions and behavior are exactly the same. There is no affection. He could go months (not just weeks, like the wife on the show said about her husband) without even touching me. Greg and his psychotherapist had some very strong things to say to the husband. I have dreamed of appearing on a talk show like Greg B. The people with situations like this couple always seem to be so thankful that they finally got things out in the open and that they are finally going to get the counseling or help that they need. I know that Greg would freak out if I told him my story with my husband. I can only imagine what he and his psychotherapist would say. Sometimes I really wish I could do it. But my husband would never stand for it. He would be mortified and would probably never speak to me again. Would it be totally wrong for me to do it? Some days I'm just so desperate...

Never again

I'm never going to feel sexy or beautiful again. I'm confident of that now. As long as I am married to this man I will never be seen as sexy. I will never look good enough for him.